*~*~* My glittering stars *~*~*

The infamous phrase “live fast, die young” was first thrust upon the world in 1949. In fact the full quote, spoken by John Derek in the film Knock on Any Door was “live fast, die young and leave a good-looking corpse”, which is as hopeful as it is alarming. Now more than ever this saying is resonating in my mind, as we seem to be in the midst of yet another spate of tragic and untimely demises among the rich and famous. Last month the glorious mess that was Ryan Dunn died an awful death after driving too fast and under the influence of alcohol. He killed himself and his passenger. He was 34 years old. Dunn was always living on the edge, chasing his dreams and prolonging old age by forever behaving like an eight year old boy. He was famous and spent years delighting audiences by being utterly ridiculous in Jackass with his co-stars. He was fantastically entertaining and bizarrely attractive as he rocked the borderline bad-ass/idiot persona. Despite his crazy lifestyle, I don’t think...

So I have always had very varied tastes in pretty much everything. Years ago this used to worry me. I used to keep lots of things to myself. I am so happy to say that I no longer do that. I have the good fortune not to care what people think of me. The people with opinions I care about would never dislike me or judge me unfairly based on something I enjoy or do. And what of anyone who would judge me based on such things? Well I care not for their opinions and they certainly wouldn’t be my friends. I am 24 years old. I am me. I am not going to change for anyone, nor would I ask anyone to change for me. I spent 11 years of my life being pretty badly bullied and as a result I was terrified to be who I was. If truth be told, I don’t think I even knew who I was. And then I found out. And I continue to find out I guess. I am always discovering new things I love. When I was 16 I started at Gosford Hill sixth form. I discovered how good life can be. School was awesome, my friends were wonder...

Another poem... I can be your friend I'm a grown woman now. I don't need you to love me, I'll get over it somehow.  I won't expect your kisses, I'll get by without your touch. I'll not look into your eyes; It'd give away too much. It hurts not to be close to you, Feel your breath on my skin. I wish things were different. I think you're my biggest sin. Please don't hold me close when we dance, Or brush my hair from my eye, It's taking all my strength Just to hide my sigh. I'll resist whispering "I love you" I don't need to hear it back. It's just nice to be around someone Who makes me forget the things I lack. Every word you say Means so much to me. You make me feel so good But I'll never let you see. It's never been like this before, I've never had to try Not to let myself love, I'm not surprised it makes me cry. I do wish you'd love me, Though I know you won't. I wish...

Here is a list Hannah and I once made detailing (loosely!!) the top 10 things we love about boys... 1. Fit 2. Good body 3. Lovely 4. Funny 5. Good kisser 6. Sexy voice 7. Beautiful eyes 8. Good dress sense 9. Nice hair 10. Willy You have to get as many of these ticked off as you can. Hilarious times from back in the day when we lived in the House of Joy. It's funny the things we think of, right? I can still remember who I was thinking of when we came up with some of those points. Any guesses...!?

Here's a little poem I found in my notebook from when I was travelling around America. It's not really up to much, but I may as well share some of my musings, eh!? It doesn't have to be something grand That makes you stop and wonder. It can be as simple as an outstretched hand That inspires you just to ponder. Sometimes a beautiful sunset Can make you feel so very small And it's these moments you never forget That will catch you when you fall. When you can gaze and marvel in awe At beauty natural and man made You'll know more than ever before Of a love that'll never fade. Faith doesn't have to be as you think it should; Religion may not play a part, But if it makes you feel safe and do something good, Trust it with all your heart. It's me off on an "I love the world" moment. Which it's hard not to have when you see so much amazing stuff as I did on that trip. And believe me when I say, it has bugger all to do with god o...