My Biggest Sin

Another poem...


I can be your friend
I'm a grown woman now.
I don't need you to love me,
I'll get over it somehow. 
I won't expect your kisses,
I'll get by without your touch.
I'll not look into your eyes;
It'd give away too much.
It hurts not to be close to you,
Feel your breath on my skin.
I wish things were different.
I think you're my biggest sin.
Please don't hold me close when we dance,
Or brush my hair from my eye,
It's taking all my strength
Just to hide my sigh.
I'll resist whispering "I love you"
I don't need to hear it back.
It's just nice to be around someone
Who makes me forget the things I lack.
Every word you say
Means so much to me.
You make me feel so good
But I'll never let you see.
It's never been like this before,
I've never had to try
Not to let myself love,
I'm not surprised it makes me cry.
I do wish you'd love me,
Though I know you won't.
I wish you felt all this too, 
But, of course, you don't. 
Everything I do is for you;
The smile across my lips,
The figure hugging dress,
The swing in my hips.
But I'll just be your friend
Because I know that's all it can be.
But it'll always be this hard
Because you'll never love me.


I know it's a bit drippy, but hey ho, that's the place I was in at that moment. I also believe I was hungover when I bashed that one out.


I have never shared my poems before, they are very personal to me. They are like a little window into my soul at a particular point in my life. So please be gentle with me, and just take them for what they are - me trying to express something in the only way I know how. With words. Don't over analyse them. If you don't like them, just stop reading them. 


I am a very happy person with a great life, I just happen to be most creative when I feel a little blue. DO not worry if they seem sad, they were just a moment in time!